I have been so cared for, this past weekend. In spite of my insistence that it was ‘Merica’s fault in the first place, I can only consider it redeemed by the surprising and delightful levels of compassion and looking-after from its inhabitants (the ones in my ken, anyway (and I’m aware that I’ve also received…
I was going to write this to you, my loves, when I ran up against that huge, vicious wall of reality which reminds me you weren’t ever going to be all I dreamed of. When I imagine who you might have been, I know I’m just kidding myself and indulging in a bittersweet fantasty designed…
Right at this second, I’m HUGELY thankful that there’s going to be an Awesome Bloggers VidChat in an hour or so. Because I need it. When I’m chatting and surrounded with people (awesome people, at that – you should check us out some Friday evening) I can zone into the moment without having to think.…
[Please note: This is a flashback to part of my reality towards the end of last year, and may contain triggers for you if you’ve suffered child loss. Things are vastly better now, but triggers (as I discovered, as my eyes hollowed and I fell once again under its thrall and swirling darkness) can still…
Oh, my friends, what a WEEK! After my little tantrum about writing vs not-writing, and tying myself up in knots about whether I was any good at it anyway (as well as trying to field the proliferation of comments saying I was amazing, juxtaposed alongside my own negative opinions and the simple fact that there’s…
“You never know what might happen in future”“Never say never”“No-one can know what’s going to happen next”“We expect things to happen, and we’re disappointed, hurt and confused when they don’t – but we aren’t owed these things – no-one ever said we were going to get them.” I am blessed with some wise, wise friends-and-relations…
Slow-weaving music steals into my soul, soothing and calming it. The familiar hypnotic beat and bassline soothe me and allow my mind to float away in familiar patterns of disassociation. I can feel the part of me which cares getting further and further away, floating upwards from the burden of Truth and wondering idly whether…
— 1 — One week to go. And suddenly even though it’s all already over, I’m not over this. — 2 — My best dream ever was…already written up, and shared at Marcia’s, where it was *ahem* rather well-received. Sorry, FTSF – y’all missed out on that one.And I’m not vlogging, because although there’s an…
What a WEEK! And to be perfectly honest, you have Kristi, Christine and Chris to thank for this post existing at all – after we received word from Husby’s endocrinologist that she thought we were unlikely to conceive naturally, she wouldn’t be giving him any more hormones until the ones which will render him permanently…
— 1 — This Friday’s edition coming to you from the wonderful Isle of Wight, my instant-holiday-in-a-can – the most magical place a mere 23 minute boat journey away (how can it be anything but a proper holiday when you have to travel over the sea to get to it?).There’s something very relaxing about being…
Considerings 