Ten Things of Thankful 149 (Love, light, and limbo) #10Thankful

Wouldn’t it be delightful to be on the beach right now? Not just any beach, either – a hot, sandy, golden beach, with sparkling waves dancing their gentle thump and hiss on the shore. A beach where a bunch of picnic blankets are strewn around ready for feasting and sunbathing and sharing a meal, and everyone is gathered, for fun, around a couple of people holding a horizontal stick between them, whilst the adventurous and the bendy take turns to bend themselves backwards under it. Wouldn’t it be awesome to be part of the happy crowd, whooping and laughing as the stick gets lower and the less-bendy fall flat in the sand, their bodies twisting and shining under the bright sunshine.

Wouldn’t it be nice? 

I wish I was somewhere in the tableau of *that* kind of limbo, because mine’s the other kind – the grey, hazy, waitingwaitingwaitingwaiting kind. The kind with no set parameters and no way of moving things forwards. The kind where all I can do is sit tight and hope it’s over soon, because even if the outcome is the one I don’t want, there are still those ever-present silver linings, and at least I’ll know where I stand.

I could do with some sunshine and clarity, but I shall content myself with deep-breathing (the kind you do in your brain because that’s the bit which needs to calm the heck down), distractions, and a list of Thankfuls.

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10 – I’m at a point in life where even though things RightNow are limboed, things are nonetheless coming together in a glorious way, thanks in HUGE part to my wonderful family and friends, and I can see options for ways forwards. I am determined to TRY to get to Murica, because if I don’t at least TRY, then I think it will be one of those deathbed (and possibly every day until then) regrets. Even if it doesn’t work. Even if I get halfway and it all falls apart. I need to give it my best shot, because if it works…

C – Secondary to ‘that point in life’, I’m also aware my attitudes are changing for the better. I don’t know if it’s an internal reflection of things normalising for the better, but the other day, out of the blue (whilst walking in the sunshine), I had the sudden, piercing thought “I’m happy.” Might not be a big deal to you if you’re a person who’s happy a lot, but this is a deep-seated, confident, cosy happy, and (for me) that’s HUGE.

O – Sub-the previous point; it rained today, all day, and I did NOT hate it. I mean, I didn’t like it, because I never like rain (I don’t *really* even enjoy being snuggled away indoors whilst it’s raining outside, because it’s still raining) but in the not so distant past, rain would get me properly down. Now it’s just something not-nice to be endured, rather than something which makes the day unmanageably bad.

U – Don’t tell, but the rain even made some things a bit pretty! I saw flowers all dusted with tiny droplets. I saw leaves with great big silvery bubbles of rain sat nestled in their veins. I saw the tips of curly new shoots all diamond-dropped with unshed drips. I saw slender branches with raindrops hanging underneath them in rows like baubles on a Christmas tree.

N – WonderAunty occasionally sends me a ‘word of the day’ email from Dictionary.com, and one of the words this week was ‘esemplastic’, which is a GLORIOUS word, and one I’d never heard before (gotta love a solid ‘add’ to the active vocab). It describes the ability to shape diverse elements or concepts into a unified whole, which I LOVE the idea of. I also hope it can be turned into a verb, because I think it would be delightful to be in a complicated situation, drawing all the elements together, and to nonchalantly remark to a friend “Gimme a minute, I’m just esemplasticising this and then I’ll be done…”

T – In spite of the ‘1000 Voices for Compassion’ group getting smaller and less lively, there are some really committed participants. We had our usual #1000Speak day last week (it’s on the 20th of each month) and whilst there weren’t that many posts, and the interaction wasn’t what we hoped, we have put our heads together and come up with a way forwards. This will involve greater focus on the 1000Speak blog, and the opportunity to share guest posts about compassion.

I – I booked tickets. HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE THANKFUL RIGHT THERE! All of the glorious things and generosities and hard-works and accommodations from others, which I mentioned way back up there in #10, have enabled me to know when I need to be present, and to book a plane ticket in order to be where I need to be, when I need to be there.

N – And ONCE I’m there, I’ll need every ounce of prayer, happy thoughts, positive vibes and good juju all my friends-and-relations can collectively muster, because there’s a potential roadblock to me proceeding along the golden pathway of ‘what could be pretty much the *perfect* future’ and it’s not an easy fix…so I need to forge a strong connection and prove my worth on the basis of everything else about me being BrightShinyIrresistable. I’ll let you know sooner to the time so you can start sending all the good out into the universe and aim it in my direction (well, not *all* the good, cos other people need some too, and I *know* you’re gonna send it to them too, so just send me a smidge – it all helps, and it’s all very encouraging)

G – PLANS! Oh the plans my friend and I have wrought – to walk and talk and walk and talk (one of my very favourite things), and we’re DOING it! We’re getting fitter, enjoying each others company…AND at the weekends we’re gonna take her daughter and my Niece and Neff along with us (whether they like it or not (which they WILL like it, cos we’ve planned some cool routes, most of which end in playparks (but no more accidental bomb sites!))) and have a LOVELY time.

*does a happystompyawesome dance for the 7 Guard-Virgins (7GV) and whisks the Secret Book of Rules (or, Book of Secret Rules) out from under their very noses as they excitedly join in*

*flicks through to Ch.16, 14th footnote, which describes the rule*

“Whensoever thou writeth a puzzle into thy List of Thankfuls (and particularly shoulsdst thou be offering a prize for the first correct identification of the answer (which may or may not be a common(ish)) phrase), thou shalt not need a tenth item, it being considered thy efforts to engender fun and interaction worthy of each counting as 1.1[recurring] of a Thankful.”

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58 thoughts on “Ten Things of Thankful 149 (Love, light, and limbo) #10Thankful

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    • And can I say – although I never imagine you as not having an underlying “happiness” – I get it. That post split drudge really does seem to weigh – and then one day you realize that the sun feels good on your face again.

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    • It’s ok my sweet – you’re allowed to dip in and out as it works with life 🙂 I wonder if I’ll make it in next month, given it hits a day before I leave for Murica…probably not lol.

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  4. It’s raining here today, for the first time in over a week. I’m happy about it because I’ve been dutifully watering the lawn for days, hoping the grass seed will take root and grow. And now I have the day off!

    I’m so happy that plans are coming together, Lizzi. Truly. And you can always go back to pink hair when you’re old and gray.;)

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    • Ok well I will like rain on THAT count only – to give you a break from watering 🙂 I hope your lawn takes root and looks lovely.

      I can go back to pink hair in future. I’ve just browned it tonight, and I think it *might* look rather smart, even! 🙂

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  5. Questions – do people study the Secret Book of Rules? Did you all just make them up?
    Vaginas.
    I’m happy that you’re happy even though it rains. Know who isn’t happy? My neighbour who just planted seeds. It “secretly” makes me happy though. I can’t stand her.
    Perhaps not having a topic for 1000 voices would draw more people?

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  6. it’s a wonderful feeling indeed – feeling that peace within and realizing your own happiness – walks and word of the day are great –

    sending you tons of positive energy – hoping and praying for you

    I am always missing the deadline for 1000 words – I hope to be better in the future.

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    • I’ve been so long without that feeling of happiness, it’s LOVELY to know it’s there, and that my life at the moment is conducive to me feeling it 🙂 I’m so very blessed and incredibly thankful.

      Thank you for all your prayers – I had an answer which is the best answer I could hope for, so HOORAY!

      I keep the deadline pretty short for 1000Speak…it’s probably foolish of me to do that cos people do miss it!

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  7. Glad you were figuratively dancing in the rain. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way that things will work out and you’ll get HERE!

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  8. How great that you realised you felt happy just because. That’s so powerful! I love that you saw things are pretty when it rains, it makes me remember the beauty of flowers and plants all raindroppy!

    Good luck with you plans. And yay to our new steps forward with 1000 Voices!

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    • YES yay to our plans, and HUGE yay for my plans, and…still yuck to rain, but I’m all about silver linings and it’s good to be able to talk myself out of a funk about the weather. I think that’s a useful tool to have.

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  9. Hooray for plans! You’re a-comin back! Dang, girlie! I think you have booked more tickets to ‘Murica than I have traveled abroad in total. Hehe. I need to get with it, don’t I? But I’m so thankful you have this to look forward to! I have another friend who’s traveling from here to Ireland in two days…I think I’m getting infected with the travel bug – bigtime! But…before another abroad trip, I might do a retreat near to me…
    Anyways, I’ve gone on a tangent. It was a nice tangent…the kind that leaves you wondering oh the places my mind will go. Hehe.
    Good to see you. As always, I love your writing and the way you string together words. I just am always blown away by your fabulous ability to just write, “flowers dusted with droplets” – I love that line!
    Anyways, have a wonderful weekend! Sending hugs your way!

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    • Ohhh but a retreat sounds FABULOUS! I think you’d really enjoy that. I hope you have a lovely time with your friend from Ireland. Is she native Irish? The accent is lovely.

      I like your tangents and I’m glad you have them here 🙂 And HOORAY for lovely writing and lovely friendships and the way this World Between the Wires connects us all so beautifully ❤

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  10. Oh SO MUCH good in this post!! I’m still giggling at your *added rule* and trying to figure out the damn puzzle! It’s too early for that nonsense. *Gulps coffee*

    I just can’t even describe the joy I feel right now- I mean, yes limbo and waiting and the anticipation foryour trip and what’s to come is both torturous and exciting. BUT just LOOK at you!

    ——-> “I had the sudden, piercing thought “I’m happy.” <———–

    That's it. That's all. That's beautiful. That's the greatest thankful you could ever share.

    (And btw- I'm jealous of the walking and talking. I want it to be US.)

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    • I agree — that moment when suddenly you realize that you are happy — nothing can beat it! There have been times that I’m so grateful for that feeling that, years later, I can still remember that moment with incredibly clarity.

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      • I shall try to remember the moments when it happens, and I’m glad you have those memories to look back on and indulge in once again.

        And HEY, prickly pear margaritas SOMETIME FOR REAL 🙂 😀 ❤

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    • *grinning HUGE* I am, I AM HAPPY! I know I fluctuate and my mood can dip and return, but in general, deep down, I am happy. I’m comfortable where I am (emotionally and physically) and I’m looking forward to SUCH good things in the future.

      Limbo (I’m sure) had much to teach me, but I’m glad to have a clear path to follow now.

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  11. That word of the day is wonderful! I’ll probably have to refer back to this post when I need to remember it, but I just love it! I love it when I can see how seemingly unrelated concepts actually tie together neatly to form a complete whole, but I never knew the word for that process.

    Sometime, you will have to go puddle-jumping with my youngest daughter–she takes such joy in the rain; I imagine she might convert you to a rain-lover, too. And if not, we will continue to send California sunshine your way! 🙂

    Good luck with your plans. I hope things go smoothly and as you hope!

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    • *happysighs* I’m so happy, getting back to responding to comments now, to know that my hope is such a huger step closer to being realised. 🙂

      I would love to go puddle-jumping with your youngest. Thing is, I discovered the rain in Murica is not NEARLY as awful as the rain in England. English rain is very cold and upsetting and grey, and gets into your bones. I like being joyful in rain when it’s possible.

      The word of the day is AWESOME! I’m tempted to sign up for them myself, but I check in at dictionary.com frequently enough that I catch most of them 🙂

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  12. Counting your blessings, GIRL! SO I heard about the next step of the plan…exciting! You know whenthe 1000 SPeak thing started (at that time) I thought it was a one time thing. I didnt realize it was monthly until a few months down the line… THats how sharp I am….

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    • Oh bless your boots, my dear. Thing is, we thought it would be a one-time thing as well, and then it garnered such a response, we wanted to take it further.

      Counting blessings is important, and right now I had a HUGE HUGE enormous answer to…well, maybe everything.

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  13. DUDE KNOCK ON WOOD. That you asked for prayers etc for the maybe is the same whether you agree or not because totes the same and so so excited for you. Also rain can be pretty fucking awesome. Did I ever tell you about the night my friend and I ran in it at 3m in New York City? It was liberating and glorious.

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    • See, now I missed this. I knocked on no wood, and MAGIC STILL HAPPENED 😉 Did you knock on wood for me? And YES TO EXCITED!

      No…I don’t think you told me about running in the rain at 3am…I’m listening. It sounds kind of amazing.

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  14. I love all of your thankfuls so much! I love how wonder aunty sends you word of the day emails and I love the new word you (and I) learned. I almost never believe in coincidence and I think it’s a perfect word for your Now. I hate limbos but I love that you’re seeing the promise beyond it. I love that you were able to see beauty beyond the rain that you don’t like and I love your spirit and commitment to bettering.

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    • My sweet, on the other side of that hope being realised, I am SO excited and happy to come back here and think that just a day ago, I was in limbo and (frankly) struggling.

      I think coincidences do happen, but I also think that things happen by accident and more often than we know, things are put in our path. I hope I continue along this path, because it holds the promise of such wonderfulness.

      And as for embettering? ALWAYS ❤

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  15. It is refreshing to hear you say (or read you type, rather) that you’re happy. Even if for only a fleeting moment. You, my dear, are one of the most amazing persons I have ever met and it makes ME happy to know that you are happy.

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  16. I’m sure when you’re over here, well, not right here, but on this side of the pond, the sunshine, encouragement, and all that good stuff will be overwhelmingly abundant. So here’s hoping the mission is a complete success. Lovely post of thankfulness. reblogging

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