Excuse my freneticism and the fact I’m not sure ‘freneticism’ is even a word.
I tried to explain it earlier – if you could imagine a person bug-eyed with excitement and spinning in circles, making a noisy *SQUEEEEEEEEEE* sound; that’s me, on the inside, right now. On the outside I’m just sat here, typing. This is stealth freneticism at its best.
Thing is, with stealth freneticism – it DOESN’T make for the right kind of attitude for writing a Ten Things of Thankful post. Or any kind of post. Because all the parts of my brain which can usually knuckle down and concentrate, are zinging around inside my head like…the Red Arrows (or the Blue Angels, if you’re Stateside) got let loose in a giant one of those bouncy trampoline places where EVERYTHING IS A BOUNCE!
Add to that, the spinning and the *SQUEEE*ing, and you get some idea as to why even to get THIS far into the post has taken half an hour and a billion typos (I erased them). BUT. There are most DEFINITELY Ten Things for which I am INCREDIBLY Thankful, even if they might be a bit ‘concept-y’, but BELIEVE ME they count. Pieces of the puzzle are MAYBE falling into place, which MIGHT possibly result in me being able to get over to Murica, but WE SHALL SEE. I’m not holding my breath and I don’t dare to really hope yet, except I’m SO VERY HOPEFUL and…worried in case it all goes wrong, but this is the first real big maybe YES I’ve had, after the other options I was exploring turned out to be not so very optiony after all.
My Facebook Memories tell me that 6 years ago, I was trying on my wedding dress. How times ever so very change. And in spite of all the ups and very downs, I think NOW, this moment, RightNow, Today, where and who I am, with all of you around me (ye who read this, and ye who I mean, but won’t read this, and ye who I mean, who don’t even know I write a blog), is GOOD.
And that’s pretty much worth 10, right there.
BUT! Onwards, and doing it (vaguely) properly. Even if some of it’s a bit bonkers, it doesn’t *really* need to make sense as long as it’s something important to me, right? Right.
HOPE – is my biggest one today, well, in the forefrontiest bit of my mind (where all the zinging around is happening) because of the Maybe. It’s a big, shinybright GORGEOUS Maybe, and it really seems like it SHOULD work, one or two things being all okay…but still no breath-holding.
FAITH – that other people have faith in me and my abilities (as a writer, as a retinal screener, as a whatever) is just…heart-brimmingly wonderful, and I can’t tell you how much it means to me that people DO think I’m worth a damn as [whatever]. To know that there are people who think I’ve Done Well at something, and Can Do Well at something in future, is a huge boost, because I’m often never quite sure.
ENCOURAGEMENT – so, because I was all brain-zippy, I vaguebooked about the HOPE, and OHMIGOSH! So many people got SO very excited and crossed their fingers, their eyes, their mustache hairs (?!) for me, and for success, and for things all working out okay, and THAT is wonderful and delightful and huge – that my friends are genuinely, actually, properly excited that I have this opportunity. More poignantly and wonderfully, so are my family, for whom this step (if it happens) will be hugely bittersweet.
FRIENDSHIP – if I haven’t covered this one a million, million times, I haven’t done this thing properly – I am SO SO SO just WONDEROUSLY happy to have friends, and such incredible, supportive, encouraging, loving, WONDERFUL ones, at that.
LOVE – always. Always always. It wins. It does incredible things. It makes the heart soar and the spirit feel it’s worth going the distance of another day, or another year, or eternity. It builds bridges, builds up, builds towards. It’s kind and patient and compassionate and I’m SO SO VERY extremely incredibly UTTERLY wonderfully [insert more (not expletives because that’s not the right one, damn you zippidy brain)…SUPERLATIVES here (in caps)] covered in it from all sides, I could just explode into a million pieces of *twinklyshiny* glittery happiness, RIGHT NOW!
THANKFULNESS – it really DOES make all the difference. Counting your blessings, even on a bad day, can bring some glorious perspective. Course, we all get days where we just don’t wanna. I really DO wanna but my brain’s just not doing it right. I can’t see past the smoke-trails and bounce-house bonkersmadness in my brain, and it’s also stupid’o’clock at night and also a million other reasons, BUT I don’t think I hit Ten in any kind of traditional manner so I’ll just leave these here…
Winning free stuff. Tea. Glitterbombs. Postcards. Fruitcake emails. Michael Kors shoes. People who make a difference. People who inspire me. Love. Friends. Sticking it to The Man. Refunds. Apples. Family. Laughing. Being back at work. Not collapsing. Naps. Sunshine. Surprises-in-the-making. Plans. Late night chats. Happy Toes Memories. Love. Ten. Or a thousand. Or a million.
THANKFUL! So very thankful.
(but still zip-zingerdy-zingled)
Soooooo where’s YOURS?
Your hosts
Today I am thankful for sunshine and warmth and little green buds. And I am always thankful for you.
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Ohhh bless your boots ❤ You have some lovely thankfuls. I wish I could share the sunshine and warmth (we have coldcold and MORE RAIN!)
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I am so very much out of touch and out of the loop these last few weeks. I hope very hard that all of your wishes work out for the very best. You definitely have ten things of thankful and ten kinds of happy in here – hooray!
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Ten kinds of happy, FORSURE, and the hope…oh the hope is wavering and teetering on the brink at the moment and I’m worried that it might all crash 😦
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Crossing all the things…
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Thank you so much. Keep them crossed. We’re at an impasse…
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So. Much. ENERGY!!!! Hahaha, I just adore hearing the hope, excitement, encouragement and love in your ‘voice’ here ❤ You've got me all zingy and tingly with happy thoughts and feelings! I am confident that things are going to work out in your favor and we will be taking long walks on the beach in no time 🙂
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Fingers crossed because now I’m not sure *sigh* it might all have gone horribly awry…
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gotta hold onto HOPE ❤️
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TRYINNNNNGGGG! 🙂
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I am so cautiously excited for you! I’m sending out positive stars and stripes wishes for this to all work out. I have had this open in my tab all weekend waiting for a few minutes to be able to read it. I’m so glad I chose now, Monday morning, to read it. I needed some Lizzi sparkly glowy this morning. ❤
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Keep being cautious, but do send all the stars and stripes wishes – I really need them right now! I’m glad the sparklyglowy helped your Monday, G! I just need that goodness to hold…
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This is so wonderful Lizzi. This makes me all sorts of happy 🙂
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Thank you THANK YOU! I’m hoping it all holds in the nice shinybright place, because it might not…
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I hope things continue to roll your way. The excitement is most certainly clear in your “voice”!
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Heheh thank you! I hope so very much too! IT’S AN ADVENTURE and even if it doesn’t work out, I will have tried my very best 😀
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I love your happy and hopeful posts. I imagine you bouncing on a stripy orange tail.
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OHHHHHH now SOMEWHERE there’s a picture of me in my Tigger suit, with big army boots on, standing (almost) on my head against a flight of stairs, and THAT was because I was all excited and…gosh, you know me rather well 😀 How lovely ❤
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I love the happy toes memories. Makes me think of caring for my stinky toes today. It’s funny, but today my motivation app said. “Take time to wiggle your toes and feel them.” 🙂
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OOoooh that sounds lovely! Mum and I just sat and watched a programme on tv and took turns giving each other foot massages, and it was LOVELY. I’m glad you took time for your toes 🙂
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yeah… I like it (the above described state of enhanced beneficial possibilities). It’s all about the energy (we have/we fee/we give off), innit?
very cool
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Heheehehehe YAY!
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So-much-energy! Good golly I think you just re-energized me as well. You have that affect on me!
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HOORAY! HOORAY! HOORAY! That’s wonderful then, and how fun that I can ‘zing’ you from a distance.
P.S. That’s a very specific, family-culture thing I do here with me and mine – we gently prod at each other in a kind of half-tickly way, and say “ZING!” really excitedly with each contact, and it’s a lovely fun giggly re-energiser…
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Hope is what we need, and your words bring it to us. Hooray for the squee!
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Heheh I’m glad you liked it! Hope is SO what’s needed, and I’m glad you felt encouraged 🙂 *hugs*
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You deserve every happiness, Lizzi! Thank you for lighting up the world in your special way! ♥
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Bless your boots, Corrinne, and thank you so much! I love that you think I bring light, and I hope I shall for a long time 🙂
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I would say Thankfulness for sure, but not just gratitude for my own life and blessings, gratitude from others too. It’s such a good feeling when you do something nice for someone and they genuinely appreciate it. Or when they just express thankfulness for your presence in their life. Then again, that kind of falls under Friendship! Great post!
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YES! That makes a huge difference, and I love when I have the opportunity to do something nice for someone. I think that’s one of the things I really appreciate about my job – I provide a service which really makes a very positive difference for people, and that matters to a lot of them. I get a lot of ‘thank you’s, and it’s lovely 🙂
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What weebluebirdie said. Your words spread glitter, friendship, love and hope. I’m a big fan of party toes – it’s time.
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YAY! Party toes, and yes, it’s TOE-tally (geddit?) time to party and celebrate because this is such a glorious ‘maybe’, and I’m SO VERY HOPEFUL! And YAY to that glorious, rainbow-y, marshmallow-y vision of lovely excitement.
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WHEW! Gotta catch my breath! Ping! Ping! Ping! 🙂 🙂 🙂
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I’M STILL PINGING! It keeps getting better and better…
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Reading this is like bouncing on a giant marshmallow with bubbles all around, their rainbow colours shining in the sunlight, with glitter falling from the sky. 🙂 I love your exuberance!
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Ohhh thank you thank you, and what a glorious image! I totally absolutely completely want to be there! LOVE IT!
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I’m with you on all of these, but especially about the friendship thing. Friends are the best. Even if my brain doesn’ t feel like counting my blessings, one of my friends are there to remind me.
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YES! Mine do the same for me, on low days, and I’m endlessly grateful they do.
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May all that zippity-zinggy HOPE be fulfilled! This just has me grinning all over. 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀
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Ohhhhh it’s looking increasingly sunshine-ily possible…
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YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I’ve stopped holding my breath – it may all be about to come crashing down…
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OH, I want that to be a false alarm. Everything crossed.
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I know, me too! We’re at an impasse. So we wait.
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That made me all giggle-bubbly inside! All those things.. they are wonderful things and I love that whole list of thankful!
You wonderful SPARKLE! Never stop shining!
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The phrase ‘giggle-bubbly’ made me think of bubble-tea, which made me think of you as bubble-tea, and I think you’d be green with blue bubbles and white, sparkly froth, and a BIG PINK STRAW…which is all absolute conjecture because I’ve never HAD bubble-tea, and apparently the sago pearls (or whatever they are) are NOT the bubbles in the bubble tea, but it’s the froth on top which is the bubbles, and when I asked a girl once (who was handing out pamphlets for a bubble-tea place) she knew it was the froth but she didn’t know WHY the froth, or what point.
Which makes me want to ASK ALL THE QUESTIONS AGAIN! But I am happy being a sparkle and still so SO happy about all the listy things 🙂 ❤
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I have never had a bubble tea! I always think about a bubble tea- since I have seen them before but I never do! I would assume the sago pearls are the bubbles too.. they look like bubbles to me. I might try one now! Well not right now but like soon! 😉
You bring this effervescent bubbly part out in me. Not that it’s not there usually, but I am a quiet one. Kids bring this out but they take it for themselves and infuse it, and it makes me rather tired. I am always tired. Feeling giggle-bubbly inside is nice!
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Ohhhh it’s tough to be drained, and I have to say, on the feedback of several introverts I know and love dearly, I’m NOT draining to be around, which is WONDERFUL (because sometimes I’m just as slightly quirky in real life, too!) I love that I bring out a bubbly, effervescent (btw, one of my favourite words) part of you and I hope that continues 😀 LOVED your pics today of you in a WonderWoman shirt – I have one as well, but a different design 🙂
And…if you ever try the bubble tea, LET ME KNOW because I’m equal parts fascinated and offput by the idea.
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SECOND. And yay. So so so SOFUCKING(CAUSEIDONTDOTWINKLY)HAPPY for you!
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You DO do twinkly…
*grins*
SECOND! And MESOVERYTOOOOOOOOO 😀
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Wow.
🙂
I don’t believe I have ever been able to claim that before. But does it still count, if I didn’t think to claim it myself?
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Totally counts. You were FRIST! Fair and square and zippy
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Crossing my fingers for you over here.
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Thank you so, SO much. And hey – FRISSSSSSTTTTT!
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