So, my lovelies. Tonight is a night of NOT so much the night, and of very much whine, and also very much WINE, which means that this may not be as coherent a post as you’ve come to expect, although I suspect it will be delightfully rambly and have a whole HEAP of those glorious run-on sentences I know you love so much. *breathe*
So. The week. Rain. Whine. Broken vehicles (seriously, four on the same day, all of which gave me MASSIVE headaches of Trying To Sort). Whine. Customs charging me an extortionate amount (which I still have to pay) just because they’re greedy, moneygrabbing bastards. Whine. And completelyfuckingridiculous day of a Friday which just should have been erased from the start. Whine.
Except it’s ended with wine. And wine is good, at least for mitigating some of the whine. Until I remember about the calories (and the bar of dark chocolate), but yaknow what? That whine can be for tomorrow, because tonight I’m buzzed, and I’mma write for you.
This week was a week of dim mists and trying to convince myself I was coming out into the light and beginning to be okay again, and perhaps I was until today hit, and my mood took several knocks with a sledhammer of stupidity (mine) and orneriness (technology’s) and simply the unjust factors of the day (rain, I’m looking at you here), which added insult and mocking to injury.
Not that there was an injury, thank goodness – I was spared that. But there was LOTS of noisy swearing and gritted-teeth-patience. Which was honestly the best I could do. Until wine, and now I’m TOTES chilled and giggly and happy to reflect on the very DONEness of the week.
BUT. Because here at this here hop we KNOW that even the bad times have silver linings, I KNOW I can find some things for which to be filled with all kinds of gratitudinal feelings. So there. “Chin up”, as my darling Sparkly One, Ra, says.
THANKFULS! (in spite of, or because of, or around and beside, wine)
Every single of the wonderful, wonderful amazing people who made my Friday tiny bits better with their sparks of light amongst the extreme frustration of four broken vehicles and lots of lateness and lack of patience. Shout outs to A (my new and wonderful OceanHeart friend (yes, I found another one, Val), and Hasty, and Kristi, and Beth, and Mandi, and Erin.
Special Shout-out to Ra, who left me a beautiful message of encouragement.
Special shout-out to Vince, who got me to and from work in the dry (in one of the dumbfuck cars) in spite of ALL THE THINGS (and believe me, they were many and varied, and every single one was a total pain in the ass).
Happiness: Wearing jewellery bought for me by people who have their own spaces in my heart, because it reminds me of them, and that makes me smile on the bad days, because I remember. And even if I don’t wear the jewellery often because it’s so SO too special for me, and I just keep it in a box within arm’s reach, so I can always hold it and look at it, and marvel that you thought I was worth it…it matters. It armours me and helps me feel capable.
SUCCESS! No matter how minor, beginning to take on work (ok, two bits of) as a Virtual Assistant, and the idea that I could make that an effective little side-line for myself, as well as exploring other options, is very…achievey feeling. And I’m very thankful for all the help and input I’ve had to get me to this point, particularly for the encouragement from Piper and Katie.
Happiness: Finding a new person in the World Between the Wires, with whom you feel an instant connection and find many shared parallels. Who understands you instinctively, and whose writing, viewpoint and intellect you respect immensely, and whose company you very much enjoy. Who checks in and makes a difference to your day with the nothings and somethings and shared minutiae of life. (Yes, I’m being intentionally vague, and there are a few people generally who fit this mold, but one in particular, and I’m not ready to share yet (because reasons)).
BUZZED: Nice bottle of rose and some bawdy talk (online and off) to accompany it, and the dark chocolate which somehow ended up gone, and the evening meal of veggie goodness, and the AFTER feeling of the day of shittiness and all the bads, and how it was OVER AND DONE WITH, and I could relax. It *almost* made the badness worthwhile, to have the AFTER. But not quite.
TRANSCENDENCE: Music. Music to lift you away from the world and send you into another plane, where all that matters is you and the notes weaving their way around your neural pathways, tracking galaxies of beauty in their wake. Coupla pieces like this, this week. I’m very happy about that. And also so happy to share them with those who feel the same way.
Perspective: On the Nows and Nexts and goalposts shifting every day, and changes upcoming, and shifting sands beneath the feet, and points of perfectly wonderful constant within all of those, because of hearts aligned for good.
Ships, which I’m continuing to send out, in spite of a notable absence on return, the point is in the sending. So there.
Writing. Connection. Always.
And the thing it all comes back around to: LOVE.
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It is wonderful that you are recognizing the successes and basking in music. I so love how you described the music!
I hope next week will be a better week for you. Hugs.
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I’m still basking in music, though it’s a bit more funky by this side of Monday – I’ve been loving me some Elvis Costello 🙂 Glad you liked the description, and so far this week is already going better, thanks 🙂
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Yay for all these thankfuls, and yay for your post on tatttoos, which was beautiful.
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Awwwh FANX! Hey, so good to see you back 😀
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I’ll send you some sunshine, and I’ll take some rain. I hope this week is much better for you. You are right–everything good comes back to love.
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Thank you. And yes. It all comes back to love, whatever the weather. But I’ll gladly swap rain for sunshine. I hope you have a lovely week xoxo
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So sorry you had such pain in the assness this week, but I’m glad you were able to find the good. As we who do this ttot know, it’s always there!
Here’s to a much, MUCH better, sunnier week!
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Fingers oh so very crossed for that! But yes. The good is always out there.
^^^makes it sound rather macabre!
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Sounds like you have much to be thankful for. Forget stupid cold machines. Warm people are much better. Hugs!
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Warm people are much better. I miss my warm people a LOT. And machines SUCK! *hugs*
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totally agree with, “…the point is in the sending.”
good to hear of the variety of the world, as that is surely the source of (the) power to develop and change and such. Not that power (or enthusiasm or 19,378,983 other euphemisms for positive energy) come from the variety, but it’s (the variety of connections with the world around you) are touch points to find your way to where you would be!
cool
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Well, I HOPE so, because much of this power lies with others, to accept or refuse, but…fingers crossed. I’ll keep trying.
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I love how consistent you are with turning shitty days & weeks into fabulous lists of thankfuls. . . It is inspiring. . . I have a really hard time even organizing my thoughts into coherent sentences when I am feeling shitty… It takes me getting extra frustrated &/or angry on top of everything else in order Rio begin to write again… Which I’ve started to do over the past couple of days… Perhaps I am ready for a more uplifting post after a few depression-filled rants…? Maybe later today… I haven’t written about my own thankfuls in a while…
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Wait and see what the day brings. Sometimes I think the rants are necessary to get them OUT and to process them, but there’s definitely something to be said for being determinedly thankful.
Glad you’re writing again. It’s good to see you 🙂
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When the Thankfuls are the hardest to think of, at first, they end of being the best ones, because you have to dig deeper and find the ones that aren’t superficial. At least that’s how it works for me. 🙂 Here’s to a better week ahead!
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Oh, the superficial ones have their place too, but these were easy to find, perhaps BECAUSE of the crappy week – the good things (and people) really stood out 🙂
But YES! Here’s to a better week ahead! Oy!
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I’m glad you made it through your hard week, lovely. I’m always happy when I see that your lifeboats came to the rescue! And I am especially excited for your VA news and success!!! Thata girl!! Keep working toward the GOAL. You got this. ❤
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YES! I will, I’m getting there and it WILL happen. I’m just so relieved I have people around me. How are YOU, Kitty? Are you still in overwhelm? I miss you but I’ve been so bad at reaching out. Sorry, darling one *HUGS*
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I’m happy you have so much to be thankful for, lovely lady. That’s worth everything!
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I do. I think everyone does, but some of mine this week are truly glorious 🙂 Have a gorgeous weekend, Cathy xo
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TWENTY-THIRD!!!!
Last week sucked, but you made it through. And that which doesn’t kill us…
Hang in there my friend. I’m always just an IM away, FWIW.
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*HUGS* Thank you. And yes – this is totally better than last week, even in spite of all the pain in the ass stuff.
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It’s pre 9AM her and for some reason, I want to share a glass of wine and some dark chocolate with you. And sunshine. Always sunshine.
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Pre-9am wine and dark chocolate and sunshine sounds like a blissful way to wake up, Val. Add in the beach and it would be perfect. I would SO share that with you.
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Schnookered….or schnockered…ive been absent but its not you… I will be more consistently back soon i suspect…be welll…i feel your vehicular pain! Xo me
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“Schnookered”
And I guessed it wasn’t me. Take what time you need. Just glad you’re still around, my friend. You be well, too *GIANT (gentle) hugs*
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Thanks lizzi… Just really sick and anxious.
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I’m sorry to hear that 😦 I wish things were different for you.
You came up in convo last night – about how wonderful you are, and how loved. So I hope your ears were burning in a good way.
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How sweet. Thanks for telling me…considering what a crank ive been ya’ll are very gracious.
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Being cranky doesn’t make you one iota less wonderful.
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Drunk as a runaway bicycle. But your ramblings are always amusing when you’re schnockered. Four broken vehicles in ONE DAY? Ughhhh! I HATE dealing with broken vehicles, but when my answer to hearing a weird noise coming from the vehicle is to turn up the radio, well, yeah. I hope you don’t feel like hammered horseshit in the morning after your evening of inebriation!
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I am having a BIG mug of rooibos tea to mitigate. And because I barely drink, I’m a lightweight, and got schnookered on half a bottle of rose. So there’s that.
But it was SO MUCH FUN and I loved being buzzed.
And yeah. Four. In one day. No amount of rubber-tree plants could have made that better 😦
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I’d say you need more chocolate. ❤
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LOL! I had a whole bar of 85% dark…it was DELICIOUS. And no. No more. 😉
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Drunky McDrunkenheimer.
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Que?
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Nothing. Just that you were drunk blogging.
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I was indeed, and it was a beautiful, buzzy thing 🙂
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So do I get the bronze?
I am thankful that you and I had the opportunity to FINALLY have a decent sized chat. Though, it wasn’t long enough. Never is, but I’m grateful for the bits and pieces because the match up to a friendship that I truly treasure.
I wore my blue and silver necklace yesterday.
I’m still waiting for my message de Scots *runs to whatsapp to check for it*
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LOL! I messaged you Scots about half an hour ago, Squishy! *giggling*
I love that you wear your necklace. I need to remember that it’s not what *I* feel, but that YOU think I’m special enough to have a sky full of stars strung about me… ❤
And YES to our chat. Even though they're never long enough. The bits and pieces are good, but we can both make sure we're in more more contact. Because it's awesome.
And TOTALLY, to bronze (in fact, I think you might be the FRIST to ever claim bronze! *hi-fives*)
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SECOND!
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So very glad your day got better and that you had your amazing lifeboats (and that I could be one of them). ALSO WINE!!!
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My day SO got better, but you helped get me through, and I’m SO thankful for your part in embettering my world. Truly. I am FUH-EVAH thankful for the day we first met, and for friendship ever since 🙂
YEAH WINE! 😉
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BOOM, baby, to that TOO! (still buzzed enough 😉 )
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Frist!
Always happy to help willing students xox
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I’m SUCH a willing student. And your help has been invaluable, and BOOM, baby! FRIST! *hi-fives* 😀
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