*hangs head in shame* Actually, no. Not shame. Because if by now you haven’t realised that this is who I am as a person, then COP ON, dammit! I’m late. Perpetually so. Even to my own party. And it’s because I’m an OPTIMIST, okay?
Odd week here, and with an odd ending – I’m super, super tired because of (shocker) not sleeping enough, but it’s caught me bad today, so my head’s all over the place and this is kind of an Anything Could Happen Post. It also may or may not be a ‘filters off’ kind of post, because of all the tired. I make no promises.
#1 HAS to be my new friendship (early days, but yes, this woman is really in my heart now) with Jenny. She’s amazing. And tougher and has more courage than I will ever have. But probably because she has to, rather than because she wants to. And that sucks. I am learning so, so much from her, and she’s bright, funny, and doesn’t seem to be bitter – just very matter of fact and determined to help the other people who are on the streets, as soon as she can.
#2 Life in the hereafter, which is filled with fun and laughter and lightness, to the point where I sometimes forget that so much tough crap is going on in life for me, and sunshine fills my heart entirely and I don’t remember about the bad stuff. Vince and I have SUCH fun together, and honestly, it’s the strength of half our lives knowing each other and having that friend who always has your back, that is making this stage of life seem GOOD, rather than just lonely and miserable. So thank goodness for epic flatmates.
#3 Having good friends to talk through tough situations with (<— I *know* something’s wrong here. I may have dangled a participle but it’s late and I don’t remember. Someone catch it? Or hold me?). My SanFranFriend, notably, has been a fantastic listening ear, and a great source of comfort and validation.
#4 Chats with Mandi. And getting to snatch brief moments of thunder and lightning on the balcony before resuming the conversation about an upcoming post at Sisterwives next week. And other things which will remain conversation under the stars, when anything can be talked about and heard.
#5 Roses and stopping to smell them. Or lavender. Or any flower really. It matters. Try it. Close your eyes and revel in it a bit. REALLY!
#6 SINGULARITY BEING AVAILABLE FOR PRE-ORDER – you guys, seriously, Helena Hann-Basquiat is one of a handful of people whose brains are so wonderful and lively I want to lick them, just to absorb some of the awesomeness. Helena took a bunch of stories written by the contributing authors (hey, including ME!) and crafted them into a wonderful, mind-blowing tale of horror and…well…GET IT AND SEE FOR YOURSELF!
#7 That I have email for those times when I don’t manage to snail-mail, because at the moment I’m failing at the rest of life, in spite of being mostly quite happy. Things have slid off the edges, and glitterbombs are one.
#8 I’m going to a Princess Party on Saturday night – my first ever – for a friend’s daughter’s 18th birthday. I have a gorgeous dress and awesome shoes and just need a hat for my damn head, or maybe one of those 20’s style bands with a feather in. Will see what I can do.
#9 Poetry. For those times when words aren’t sufficient. I think at heart I am a poet. Maybe. Cos this didn’t rhyme…hahaha!
#10. For now? 1.3 *dances for the 7* Or flirting. But mostly dancing and silliness. Because my brain at this point has detached from its stem and is slowly floating into outer space like a helium balloon the dumb kid let go of, and all you can do is comfort them as you both watch that sparkling, shining wonder get higher and higher into the atmosphere. Time to let it goooooooo!
(and no, there is no new banner because of my odd week and how much I suck – sorry!)