Blogging this from my phone even tho I said I never ever would – things change and just right now I need to get this out…need it out before I’m sick again because already I feel myself swirling into darkness and I may never come back.
Shit, I may never come back!
As soon as this ride is over they’ll take my phone and I’ll be gone for I don’t know how long and I’m SO SORRY, so, so sorry to those I love and any who will miss me and all who will be so let down by my behaviour – but never as much as I’ve let myself down…
I’ve already admitted my guilt and there were witnesses so I couldn’t deny it even if I was ever going to try but I WOULDN’T because ohhhhh this is SO AWFUL I CAN’Tcan’tcan’t never would do that and SHIT I WISH I HAD NEVER DONE THIS but I was in a rush and I flipped and I pushed him and just nudged really but he fell and I didn’t DIDN’T KNOW THERE WAS A CAR COMING and and and I can’t and I KNOW I SHOULDN’T HAVE and ohhh I am so, SO SORRY!
Ohmigosh I’m going to be sick.
The ride’s over – they’re taking me in – my world is over.