There is no time left tonight, for the hour is ridiculously late and I’m totally *wiltingly* past it – yet with 6SS I might just be able to salvage something of the…no, it’s not wreckage because there was creation rather than destruction (and it sure as hell isn’t waste because ohhhh that time was SO well spent)…time spent elsewhere than blogging, and create something out of it to share here, anyway.
Alas, for Finish The Sentence Friday and 7 Quick Takes, I’m going to be a no-show, because I cannot begin to think about how to address them properly – my mind is consumed by this instead, and so they fall by the wayside, leaving me no small amount relieved that for once on a Friday I haven’t tracts to write, but snippets; for those snippets are lovely.
I received a Valentine’s card from a good friend over Google+ yesterday, and it was completely lovely but got me to thinking (again) about the Truth in online friendships and how wonderful they can be, though…do they become diminished when everyone’s grouped together, or is the meaning just shared and multiplied and made more awesome for being part of such a lovely collective? Who knows?
But it inspired me sufficiently to spend the evening thinking, agonising over how I was going to express those things – those Feels I find so easy to write as long as they’re not from me, don’t originate with me and I have nothing to do with their ownership – because admitting to Feels is vulnerability and putting yourself out on a ledge, plain as day, not knowing whether you’re going to be welcomed with open arms or pelted with whatever blunt, heavy object comes to hand (or worse, backed slowly away from and gradually cut out of the lives of whomsoever you shared with)…suffice it to say that combined with my natural English distaste for anything more than subtext and inference, this was no easy task.
Anyway, I did it, and tapped into one of my old themes – the hardwired heart (which I totally love (and you see how easy it is to be excited and *feel-y* and say that terrifying ‘L’ word as long as it has a little ‘l’ and is about a Thing rather than a Whom)) – and got going: earlier I posted one of those fancy graphic memes to the Considerings Facebook Page, and on it – the last thing – was a HUGE CHALLENGE, so I kept it, I took it to heart, and I decided that I’d go for it – I’d be vulnerable and take the time to actually do some TELLING…and so you see that all I can do to end this is suggest you come back for Ten Things of Thankful this weekend, to find out whether I get stunned by a maybe-perhaps-possible*ohsuchahappythought* return, or whether I’m searching in nooks and crannies for thankfuls, sporting a bruised heart and a few less friends.